Counting My Blessings

Much of my Thanksgiving break was spent in my head. For whatever reason I've felt more emotional than usual lately. I don't know if it's the isolation I often feel living where I live and so far away from friends and family or if my basic mood has now warped into an even more emotional individual. Nonetheless I've been spending a lot of time in introspection and enjoying little things.

I've been spending time thinking about my grandma and all the wonderful things about her. I've thought about how much my mom has changed and how much more I like to be around her than I used to. I think about my brothers. I think about the youngest and how much I wish I would've been a better person to him so many years ago. I think about how much guilt I feel all the time for not having let him know how much I really loved him. I've thought about how proud I am of my other brother. He's come so far and has really turned into a wonderful young man. He has such a big and loving heart. I've thought about how much both my brothers mean to me. A friend of mine lost her brother to a car accident a year ago. I think about what that would do to me if anything like that happen to either of my brothers. I would fall apart. I would be devastated.

I've also been thinking about how much I love my husband. It's so weird because the stereotype is that the longer you are together after you're married the further apart you become and the less you adore each other, but it's been just the opposite for us. Through the years we have become better people and our relationship has become so much stronger. I've been married to him now for over three year and we've been together for 7 and I still hate not being with him. I never really get sick of being around him. If I have to be gone for a trip even for one night it is so hard! I get homesick and husband-sick. It's really pathetic I know, but it's true.

I've really been enjoying my new hobby in taking pictures. My favorite thing right now is sunset pictures (or sunrise if I am up early enough). It's the most peaceful time of my day and every day is something new and beautiful. It is pure serenity. I adore it and it's so therapeutic.